I Hate February, but I’m Learning to Love Me

14 Feb

I hate February. I really, really hate February. The weather is bipolar, everyone is suffering from cabin fever, the sun is on vacation in the southern hemisphere, and…it’s Valentine’s Day.

Here we are again, a day of flowers and chocolates and cheesy cards, hearts and cupids, couples and love. Everywhere you look there’s something red or pink, X’s and O’s, and reminders of all kinds that this is a day for lovers. It’s so overwhelming, for this one day everyone feels the need to broadcast that they have a significant other. But what about the other 364 days of the year, why aren’t they as important when it comes to showing your special someone, and the world, how happy and in love you really are?

This year is not so unlike the many other Valentine’s Days I’ve faced in my life time. It has always just been another day where I (and I’m sure there are many others out there like me) am reminded that forever love hasn’t found me yet. So needless to say, I have never had a fantastic Valentine’s Day.

But who knows, maybe this year will be different? I mean, a girl can dream after all….

Now, don’t misunderstand me. I’m not the kind of girl who needs big gestures and a fanfare. I’m easy to please — talk to me, spend time with me, get to know my family and friends, let me be part of your life, be proud to introduce me to YOUR family and friends, make me laugh, remind me I’m yours daily and I’ll be the happiest girl in the world. When I fall in love, I fall hard, with my whole heart and soul. I would move Heaven and Earth to make the one I love happy. I would walk thousands of miles to spent 2 precious minutes with him. I am a hopeless romantic and I hope everyday he will know how special and important he is to me, and how much I love him.

Have you seen the Hallmark commercial “Tell Me,” it’s been running for a couple of years now. I’ll link it here. In the video description is says “Everyone has something that they need to hear this Valentine’s Day. Tell them with a Hallmark greeting card.” Now I know the point of the commercial is to sell more cards, but let’s think about it the deeper meaning here. We each have something we NEED to hear, and the commercial captures all these needs perfectly. The lines are raw with emotion, delivered by a cast who looks like every day, normal people. I find myself relating to this commercial because inside I am screaming for someone to tell me those things, too.

Tell me I’m beautiful. Tell me you need me. Tell me you’ll miss me. That you’ll never let me go. Tell me I’m worth it. Tell me we’ll grow old together. Tell me that I’m still the one and that you need me.

That’s all I need.

I don’t need chocolates or flowers on a day that was created to sell more merchandise. I just need to know I’m special to you because, when you grow up feeling invisible, it’s hard to believe anyone out there will ever want, or even be satisfied with just you.

So this Valentine’s Day I’ve decided to focus my attention on learning to love myself and it’s going to be hard. I am my own worst critic and I’ve known that for years. When I look in the mirror, I see faults, failures, mistakes and disappointment. But starting today, I will try to discover one new thing everyday I love about being me.

This is a very drastic approach to this day than I took in high school. Don’t believe me, check out this photo. It’s so old, I had to hack into my MySpace account (it took me the better part of an hour to remember the email and password combination, if that gives you any indication to the last time I logged in!) to retrieve it! Back then, my best friend and I would search for the PERFECT Anti-Valentine’s Day shirts so we could celebrate Singles Awareness Day in style — you guessed it, we wore them to school. This one is from my sophomore year and it also happens to be my favorite.

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I found this comic in the morning paper a couple of days ago. Reminded me of my parents, they always get my sisters and I a heart-shaped box of chocolate, and sometimes there’s even been a cute card or stuffed animal. I’m very lucky they are mine, and I love them so very much!

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So Happy Valentine’s Day or Single’s Awareness Day, and if you don’t like either of those…. HAPPY THURSDAY! 😀

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5 Responses to “I Hate February, but I’m Learning to Love Me”

  1. Danielle Renee' February 17, 2013 at 11:03 am #

    😀 I remember wearing that shirt lol

    • mgibbon2 February 17, 2013 at 11:05 am #

      Hahahaha!!! It’s an old photo and shirt! Good times! We were/are pretty awesome! 😀

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